Being GenderQueer ~ The Stigma
It’s been four years since I first spoke about my gender identity candidly, The first person I told was a therapist and it wasn’t long after that I told family. I was 24 at the time.
I expected that I would most likely go on to transition to male, I suspected that it would be a lengthy process with quite a wait before it would start…
|21 Year Old Me ~ More fem looking but even then I loved rocking a shaved head|
Fast forward a few years and it was actually me that halted my transition. I’m the one that felt comfortable with an androgynous appearance. I questioned whether I wanted to take testosterone for so long that I’d be all beard and masculinity to look at.
It took less than a year on testosterone for me to feel like myself. With some of the effects of testosterone not being reversible ~ I knew that taking a break from hormones was best for me. It would give me time to assess what changes I wanted from T.
I know that there is a stigma connected to people who transition in this way. It makes some people feel like they have the right to label all Trans or GenderQueer people as ‘confused’.
For me I simply learnt that I am one of those people who can live with the inside and outside not fully matching. I am legally female, I have the appearance of a slightly androgynous woman. I wear a mix of ‘male and female clothing’ and I have feelings of being male inside.
For many Trans people carrying on with hormones for years or for life is necessary for their wellbeing.
For others, less of a medical transition is desired. Whatever is right for the individual ~ I respect and support Trans and GenderQueer/Non-Binary people in their personal journey.